Whelp.

This is the second month (not back to back) we've actively tried to conceive and haven't gotten pregnant. The first go around I think it was a matter of positional interference and, well, timing. This time, I blame it on my crazy month of December.

December was the month from Hades. I got my period on the 1st, and on the first day of dress rehearsal for the play I was in. My period was light, and finished before opening night, December 5th. Four weeks of craziness passed, then January 1st hit. I was driving and out of nowhere I felt sharp shooting pains in my abdomen. It was really a concern because I rarely feel cramps like that. So I kept a close look out for my period that was due any second. It never came, so I got suspicious that maybe I was pregnant! And that what I was feeling were implantation cramps.

My period was now a week late. I had an appointment at the Health and Welfare office coming up, so I decided if my period still hadn't shown up, I'd get blood drawn while I was there. I took three HPT and they all ready negative. So, when I went to my appt, I was 11 days late and my urine test immediately read negative. The nurse told me it probably had something to do with being around a lot of women the last two months. So my cycle was screwed up. When I got home, I finally relaxed about it, and within the next few hours, I got my period. GAHH. It was a bit of a relief though. I'm hardly ever late!

So tracking my cycles is my current struggle because some months I'm 28 days, but last month I was 37 days. I probably somehow missed my fertility window, and where Taylor was at drill during the few days I was fertile, I didn't have the greatest chance this last month.

I definitely want to keep at it because it's my life right now, but I'm afraid of the change in seasons, and how when I'm 3 months along, it will start to get warm outside, which is why I especially wanted to get pregnant earlier in winter rather than later. I HAVE to get pregnant this month, otherwise I may have to hold off until July, when the scorching summer is mostly over with. Heat and HG Do NOT go well together.

It is all about timing.